A look underneath the hood (the story behind the work).

Childhood

I grew up the seventh child of seven in a large Catholic family. Sensitive, intuitive and carrying something deeply hidden. I’m gay and for the longest time it felt like a problem that I needed to solve or an aspect of myself that I needed to overcome.

What I remember most from my childhood was the the constant feeling that there was something wrong with who and what I was. Shame, guilt and fear permeated everything.

Not feeling whole

I was born without a left pectoral muscle. For reasons that are unexplainable. Doctors kept telling me it would correct itself as I went through puberty, but it never did.

This became the physical embodiment of everything that I was already feeling internally. I wasn’t whole. I wasn’t complete. I wasn’t acceptable. So I spent years trying to hide it and outrun it. But you can’t outrun the body. It catches up with you eventually.

Running from myself

I spent a good chunk of my teens and twenties running from myself. Living excessively and partying at an extreme level. Creating elaborate lies about who I was interested in. Anything not to have to face the reality of who I actually was.

However my passion for music has been a thread that’s run throughout my life. From an early age I found solace in sound. I DJ’ed, made music and collected records obsessively before releasing my own music via independent record labels in Europe.

Whilst I was losing myself in the partying, the connection and drive that I had for deep electronic music and the healing power within it was a comfort that I could always return to.

The professional identity

For just over 20 years I worked in digital advertising and production. I was good at it. I knew success. I built things and made things happen. But I rarely felt fulfilled. It was as if I was playing a character who had it all figured out. Except I had no idea who I really was underneath any of it.

The turning point came in my early thirties. A series of complex and destabilising life events cracked me wide open. Big red stop signs that forced me to look inward instead of outward. It was time to stop running.

The learning part

Since 2017 I retrained across multiple disciplines, which include: Nutrition. Yoga. Embodied Movement. TRE and Family / Systemic Constellations. Then from 2022 with mystics, elders and shamanic teachers. There’s a different quality to this kind of learning. It’s an apprenticeship. Wisdom that’s being passed down. Knowledge that becomes wisdom as it’s ingested. Available to everyone.

I spent time in Greece, South Africa and the UK sitting with people who aren’t interested in dogma. They’re people driven by what’s true. Traditional and indigenous wisdom, coming alive through a modern lens.

How I work

I’m able to see and feel into the places in a person that are hidden from them. Whether it’s in the mind or the body, to me it’s one system.

I understand how to sit with complexity. And to give that complexity what it needs in order for it to be able to come to the surface.

Nothing is ever taken out. Everything transforms and sits differently inside the system. Everything belongs through the practice of acceptance.

The truth

I’m still learning. Still excavating. Still being surprised by what I find when I look deep enough.

In 2024 I went through another incredibly painful experience that uncovered layers of wounding that I thought I’d taken care of years before. It broke me and then it showed me the depth of the work that was available. It gave me direct embodied understanding of what real healing actually looks and feels like.

It’s changed me forever. It’s changed how I work and what I’m now able to offer others.

Going forward

I’m building something called Inner Cohesion. It’s the modality I’ve created over the past few years. Developed directly from handed down wisdom, personal experience and what I’ve learnt from working with clients in a one to one setting.

It’s a platform that will explore healing through community. It’s a process that brings coherence to your inner world.

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